The karmic lessons of romantic relationships and soul mates across time.

Transcript

Have you ever wondered about a romantic attraction to someone? An attraction that defies logic, and never seems to resolve itself?

In today’s episode we are diving deep into the world of past life regression, and examining a recent experience that I had. I will be sharing the regressions that I completed to understand that pattern of current life romantic relationships and the role of soul mates in these. Interestingly these are the first incarnations that I have come across where 2 past lives as females are revealed. There are 4 incarnations in total, 2 male, 2 female.

This was a past life regression using a pre-recorded audio, but with the intention and script to reveal past life soul mate relationships. 

I wanted to do a number of past life regressions on the theme of soul mates and relationships before the new moon as the new moon was 12 degrees Neptune in Sagittarius which is EXACTLY the degree point where my Neptune is in Sagittarius, so boom I knew it would be be big and had to be about relationships as we are Venus Retrograde in Capricorn.

It’s also important I believe that you walk the talk, and in 2022 I will be offering new and specific past life regression therapy sessions in a package format which will delve into romantic relationships.If you haven’t done the work yourself, how can you understand what your own clients will be experiencing?

The previous couple of days I had completed an age regression and a past life regression using two different recordings from the same therapist. 

Both had been frustrating experiences due to a lack of clarity.  For those of you wondering, an age regression takes you back in time in your current life to find clues, people and situations which have residues to your intention. So in the context of this, I was looking for information about relationship patterns, and specifically in relation to one person in my life.   I saw one friend’s face from primary school which was clearly identifiable, and then I fell asleep and woke up when he counted from 5 to 1. 

I was so annoyed. But when I calmed myself I thought, well actually the lesson there, is potentially that there is nothing I need to see from the present life that is important, or I can heal any residue without being cinematically involved.

The next session was the past life regression. And I saw and heard and felt nothing other than being completely relaxed and feeling like I was searching so darn hard. Until the regressionist said “now go to the last day of your life” and then I was able to see, but a blurred vision, as If I was floating on the ceiling. I tried to focus my vision but could not, but then was overtaken by emotion. Hot tears started rolling down my face and I heard myself say “don’t leave me”. 

Then I started crying (in real life, in the now present moment) uncontrollably, until my energy floated away and I was given healing in the afterlife. From that point I just felt calm.

The only message I could ascertain from my spirit guide was the word “joy” and that the romantic relationship that I had been involved in, in that life brought me great joy. I felt as though I was a soldier lying on a bed and that the woman I was talking to was a nurse and it was war time in some makeshift army hospital.  I knew who the woman was without having to see her.

After the regression ended, that is when  a huge energetic voltage ripped through my body and shook it and made me involuntarily spasm like a person having a seizure.  I was not alarmed, as this always happens to me in big energetic shifts and it is like being struck by lightning. It actually hurts. My head also snaps fast from left to right, as if clearing the memory physically from my mind. To say that the experience is exhausting is an understatement. To have such a  cathartic cry with tears being produced  whilst in trance and then have the electric energy when out of trance is a bit like running a marathon. But I am also rather pleased when this happens because I know I have just released something big, even If I was not allowed to visibly see the story.

So it was a little bitter sweet, and I hankered for more. So the next day I loaded up the next regression recording, and I was determined to be able to see something this time. We had written exercises to complete about the intention of the session  and the romantic relationship we wanted to investigate.

Here’s what I wrote in my past life diary before undertaking the regression:

• I can handle whatever comes up.
• I can clearly see all the scenes of the regression
• I allow myself to feel as much as I can handle.
• I allow myself to see myself no matter who I am in that past life
• I can hear my spirit guide.
• I can see my spirit guide.
• I can receive guidance in the regression.
• I can learn my lessons through Past Life Regression.,
• Every experience I am having is moving me closer.

The regression started with me being asked to walk down a set of stairs into a white room that leads out into a garden.

My stairs are always white marble, with a beautiful balustrade and they are inside a hollywood esq mansion or a castle, depending on the regression. The shoes change as well.

My garden is always one at the top of a mountain range, in a private house where the fence overlooks the view and I lean over to gaze at the view. This time, when I walked out to the garden it immediately morphed into a pool area and I was staring out at the pool, which seemed empty, although I got the sense that it was actually filled with people and that it was a busy scene, but that I was being prevented from seeing the people.

The regressionist in the recording asked me what my name was, and clear as day I hear, in her trademark breathy voice. “Marilyn”. At which my ego mind interjected with bullshit. I asked again, and she said the same.

I became almost furious and was going to wake myself up and turn the regression off. I remember thinking, there is no way in hell I was ever Marilyn Monroe, for a start I hate wearing lipstick! Then the voice in my mind said…. Oooh but you’ve always wanted to have platinum blonde hair….

The regressionist asked what the date was and I answered or sorry Marilyn answered 23rd January 1953. I was quite surprised because I know that in my own clients sessions, often they struggle to get a timeframe and usually they can get a decade or century but not a specific date. So at that point my ego mind kinda went- hang on there might be something here.

The regressionists voice could also be heard to say.

Even if it seems make believe, go with the story, it has a lesson to teach you, even if it is in story form. At which point my mind surrendered to the experience. In my minds eye a white paw put itself on my right arm in reassurance, and I knew that White Wolf, my animal spirit guide, was here to help and reassure me during the session.

So back to the pool. I knew it was a Hollywood Pool party but for some reason I felt out of place, like an outsider. When I say I, I mean Marilyn - Marilyn was showing me her life, and as such I was watching from beside her in the scenes, not through her eyes.

Because I had spent so much time trying to process why I was seeing Marilyn, we were now taken to the last day of her life and my perspective changed. We were in another pool area but a different pool to the previous one. I was now looking at her face, registering shock and horror as a blue cloth was forced over her face, and she died. Hot tears came streaming down my face in the present moment, and the thought came to me “Oh I always knew the theories were right, so she was murdered”. 

The therapist then took us to the next life. But before I get to the next life from that session, let’s talk a bit about what I experienced.

When I came to, because of the writing I had done in the journal, I was then almost able to believe it was me, and that I had been Marilyn Monroe, but as I started to analyse it I began to have doubts. There was just too much to process from the other 3 regressions that came after Marilyn that I went to  bed and decided to analyse it in the morning.

Here’s some of the insights:

• Marilyn was destined to be a star and wanted it, however, her visibility was a death trap.
• Marilyn was murdered because she wanted Bobby to leave his wife.
• Marilyn had three marriages in her lifetime and it seemed as though her foot was always in the honey pot because of her desire to succeed in the film industry.
• Her image and career may have been successful but her self love was not prioritised and thus this reflected in her romantic relationships and experiences in that lifetime.

Now remember, I don’t know much about Marilyn, so then I was a bit perplexed and started watching a few videos and listening to recordings of her to make sure it was her.

By the time I finished that I was convinced that I was not Marilyn Monroe, that her spirit had been drawn to me to help me illustrate a past life, that I believe that certain entities- can come and guide us to help us understand our lives, by providing an analogy to theirs. I feel that this is the case where it may not be helpful for us to obsess about tracking down exactly “who we were” in that specific lifetime.  Not everyone that has ever lived is googlable. And if your higher self and spirit guides believe that it is in your highest and best interest to see the story, and show you that the story a similar story to someone else's, then we can understand the narrative of that life, and its implications, and receive a cathartic release emotionally, without ever having to get bogged down in the details of the precise nature of that incarnation.

It is a reminder to ourselves, that we are not our past incarnations, whilst the activities of our soul over time shape who we are right now, the only person we can ever be is the person who is listening to this podcast right now.

So if that is the case, then we can thank Marilyn Monroe for sharing her energy in that regression. And if we want to investigate a little more, we can ask- why? Why Marilyn and what is the connection?

• In the weeks before the regression I had been unusually drawn to watching a couple of Marilyn Monroe videos on YouTube
• There is a white floaty Marilyn Monroe dress in the window of a dress shop that has been catching my eyes.
• I’ve been drawn to listening to Vogue by Madonna a lot lately.
• I have always been interested in the Kennedy’s. When I was a kid “Glad I’m not a Kennedy” by Shona Laing always stuck in my head and I remember very vividly the day that JFK Jnr and Carolyn Kennedy died  (Marilyn was having an affair with Bobby Kennedy and sung the famous happy birthday Mr President song to JFK.
• When I lived in a small winemaking town in NSW one of the fabulous women I knew was famous for getting drunk and singing Happy Birthday Mr President.
• Always wanted platinum blonde hair. (there’s another hair indication for you) but never have achieved it. Always admired 1950’s clothing and jewellery but have tried it on, and it just wasn’t me. I can’t pull off or be bothered to be frank with the level of glamour. But having said that, I would not describe myself as a big Marilyn fan. Sure I thought she was gorgeous, and I loved the fact that she was voluptuous, but I was a die hard Audrey Hepburn fan. 
• When I was growing up, we had a Marilyn personator who used to hang out in her lunch break at Hungry Jacks in the Queen Street Mall. I would always see her in the same spot, and think it funny to see the contrast of the glamour and the greasy burger joint. My dad would also always see her catching her bus home at the end of his work day, and I would go up to her and talk to her in Hungry Jacks as a part of my grieving process after his death.
• In a previous regression a week prior when trying to investigate a hunch that my soul had died in a car accident where I went over the edge of a cliff, I saw a blonde woman, from the 1950s with short shorts and a big bust leaning over a cadillac. I remember thinking, that’s not Princess Grace that looks more like Marrilyn!  I was chasing a theory at the time about Princess Grace that I will leave for another episode.

So, all in all, I think Marrilyn was sent to be a guide, because she knew that I was familiar enough with her to pay attention, but also not attached enough to her as an “idol” to mistake her as my own incarnation.

I feel as though my soul has definitely been a woman in the 1950s who died as the result of a bungled love affair with a married man. I’m not sure if there are any other similarities and I’m not sure that it is important. The point was to show me the participation in an affair, and that the affair took place whilst both parties were married. Potentially it might also explain my aversion to lipstick if we assume that the physical representation of Marilyn can be used as a stereotype for what I looked like broadly back then. It links up nicely with the theme of hair reveals for incarnation messages as well.  It also helps me understand why recently I went to go back blonde and I looked at myself in the mirror and said, I just can’t do that again, this is the right me for the moment, the blonde would be fake.

If you want to push it a little further, then I think there is also a message in there about the fact that recently when I quit Facebook for the last time, I was very relieved to be able to concentrate on a medium where I could share my teachings without having to worry about doing my hair and make up, as and to use a phrase that I have been known to say “I’m not a girly girl and I just don’t understand how women know how to do their hair and makeup like that”.

It explains also a trigger that I had with my ex husband- he was a bum kind of a guy- he liked women in short shorts and I can’t wear those. Just not made that way- my thighs are way too womanly. I would always wear v necks to highlight my nice cleavage, but he was seemingly not interested. His long term partner now always wears cut off shorts, even in winter.

So with that, I think we have extracted as much as we possibly can about that part of the regression.  Now to the second and third lives.

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The second incarnation revealed in the recorded regression was a very similar story, but from a slightly different angle. Again, I knew the story instantly, and easily transported myself along the journey as it played out. It was convincing enough for me to believe it, but when I finished the journey and googled the name, I knew it was for illustrative purposes only.

So the next identity to be revealed told me that her name was daisy. Daisy Buchanan. And I knew her life’s story immediately. I think lots and lots of people do. But before I get to her story, let me just share the visuals I got which confirmed the storyline was that of the Great Gatsby.

The green light flashing. In my mind I was shown the green light flashing at the end of Daisy Buchanan’s east Egg dock and I was viewing it as though I was on Jay Gatsby’s property- looking over at the light flashing.

When asked about the date in the regression my mind answered 1923.  For me the life was over fast as my mind just then flashed the entire story in a second like in fast motion. I already know the story so it was just to reinforce it.

So let’s recap the story of the Great Gatsby briefly so we can then draw out the messages for me, because obviously I can’t have been a fictional character. It is just being used as an archetype.

Daisy’s is the fictional story that is written by F Scott Fitzgerald. It’s a blend of the story of his wife Zelda, and all the other women he knew at the time. It was published in 1925.  It has recently been popularised in the movie starring Leonardo DiCaprio.

Now the Great Gatsby is one of my favourite novels of all time. I’ve always loved the book and its tragic elements. When I was younger I collected Crystal Decanters and always wanted to have a bar or a bar trolley just like I imagined they would have in the 1920s. I love the fashion of the 1920s but again, have never been drawn enough to wear flapper style outfits, they just don’t suit me.

Set in the Jazz Age on Long Island, near New York City, the novel depicts first-person narrator Nick Carraway's interactions with mysterious millionaire Jay Gatsby and Gatsby's obsession to reunite with his former lover, Daisy Buchanan, despite the fact that she is now married to Tom and has a daughter.

What was the message from the life of Daisy Buchanan for me? 

Well firstly it showed the continuation of the theme of a messy relationship and extra marital affairs. Seems like my soul did not learn the lesson in the lifetime portrayed by the story of Marilyn. So I came back again to re-learn it. At least this time, I was not killed as a result of the relationship. So that’s a tick for my soul. Well done. 

However, Daisy’s marriage with Tom is not happy, and he has a lover Myrtle. So it’s only fair that Daisy finds a little love and action herself, right? 

Well, in life there are always consequences, intended or not for our actions and this is a tangled love story.

In this story both the lovers of Tom and Daisy die and the Buchanans get off “scott free” so to speak. They get to keep their life of illusion and wealth and great unhappiness, at the expense of the happiness of others.

Jay Gatsby lover of Daisy, is murdered by Myrtle’s husband in a case of deliberate but mistaken identity after Myrtle is killed when she runs out to the road thinking she has heard Tom’s car, only to be struck by the car.  In the car is not Tom, but Jay Gatsby and Daisy, and it is Daisy who is driving the car. George kills Jay Gatbsby to revenge his wife’s death, and because in his grief, he wrongly concludes that Myrtle was running out to see Jay because Jay was her lover, when in fact Tom was her lover..

It is the great tragedy and irony of the story. 

So yet again it ends in disaster. Love leads to death.  Tom and Daisy stay unhappily married ever after and I’m sure Tom is allowed to have many affairs under and above the radar for the rest of his life. Daisy, knowing her actions lead to the death of her lover, probably never has an affair again, and lives a life pretending to be happy, whilst drinking her misery away for the rest of her life. On the surface, they have all that life can provide, but underneath they have nothing.

What I find interesting about this story being shown to me in my past life regression, is that it explains a couple of things for me.

1. I’ve always been dead against affairs. Even as a teenager, I would never ever cheat on someone that I was in a relationship with. I could not understand why people just didn’t leave relationships and be done with it. To me it was black and while. A non-negotiable. And now we know why.
2. Placement in birth family. 
   1. Given what I just said, it makes sense to me now that I would choose to be born in a family where my parents would stay married without any affairs until death do us part. My soul’s experience matched with the potential experience of the family I was to be born in.  Clearly this lifetime, needed this environment for me to progress. Sometimes the families we choose to be born in, provide us with negative experiences that will provide contrast to help us grow, and other times they are chosen for the safety they provide- this provides us the ability to explore other themes that we need to in our lifetime. Remember your higher self is not a sadist. We are rarely born into a situation of our own choice where every single element is a contrast. We’d go mad.
3. The American Dream and the concept of the perfect family and marriage. 
   1. I’ve always had high ideals and expectations about family life. Even my astrological birth chart shows that my demands on lovers and ideals about family life border on fantasy and are unrealistic. So perhaps this story was to remind me, once again, that the dream is not what I need. I’ve tried that before, and look where it led me.
4. The past is the past.
   1. Jay Gatsby fell in love with Daisy a long time before she met Tom. But he came from a poor family and Daisy, a rich socialite, would never have been allowed to marry him. So he went off to war to reinvent himself, and his whole goal in life was to raise himself (in his eyes) to the financial and life circumstances whereby he could win Daisy back. But in the process he corrupted his soul. He made the fatal mistake of assuming that people don’t change, and to an extent, Daisy’s shallow nature did not change, and she was still the girl inside that he loved, however, there were other factors involved now, including a child and a husband, and so the situation was not the same. Time had passed, and life had become more complex. Looking back to what was, is merely an illusion. You can not say, I wish I had made a different decision, or I need to hold back on living until I can have this idealised relationship. To do that is to live partly in the past, in another timeline that exists only in your head and to ignore the reality of your life.
   2. I think this lesson is particularly valid for those of us that have a “one that got away fantasy'' living in our head. The bit where we kid ourselves that the timing was not right, but it will be right in the future. The point is that the timing was not right for a reason, and it will never be right.
   3. That point particularly hit me as I write this podcast episode as I asked my higher self to show me lives lived with a particular person, or to show me scenarios whereby the themes of past lives matched the situation that presented me. What I was provided with was three stories of past lives lived with the person for for me is “Mr the one that got away”. It explains to me the intense connection that I feel and the sense of internal desperation that it has never come to be. But now I understand that we tried three times already. He was the “character archetype” of Tom Buchanan in one life, and Bobby Kennedy in another. And in the third life that was revealed, I was the male this time and I murdered them. Talk about a love triangle. The only scene that I saw from the third life, because my mind was still trying to process the second one, when the regression therapist moved on too fast to the next life in the recording was a scene in which I observed a body laying face down in the snow. The girl was dead, and wearing a white shirt, through which I could see a big pool of blood- as though she had been shot in the back. I knew I was not her because I was standing over her, and in my mind the only information I was given, was audibly and I heard “Twin Peaks”. I knew then that this was an analogy, but not having watched the TV series, I did not know the specifics, suffice to know that that is how the relationship ended in that life.

There was supposed to be a 4th life, but I could not process fast enough and it went into a blur combined with complete frustration, and by the time my mind got my head around it all, the regressionist was counting up from 5 and I was awake and back in the room.

It has taken me three days to process these lives in my mind, and pieces and understanding are continuing to come to me. Whilst they have been very invaluable in providing lessons for teaching purposes they were not 100% satisfying to me. They have showed me a pattern of relationships and answered a specific question that I had, and I received cathartic emotional release from the Marilyn Monroe archetype story, but I am acutely aware that had this session been done in person over 3-4 hours rather than crammed into an audio regression, I would have also been able to remove limiting beliefs and had in regression insight and clarity. It would have been much more powerful.

However, I believe that the experience is complete. By using archetypal stories, from both fiction, movies and a real celebrity, I was able to access the insight into my lives, see a pattern  and know with all certainty that I need not delve into trying to find out more about these lives. There are so many others, so many other adventures to understand that will provide further understanding and clarity to heal my heart and my understanding of how to conduct myself in relationships and how to choose who to have relationships with, coming forward.

For that I am truly grateful, and I thank Marilyn for volunteering to assist me in this way. It’s also interesting that the copyright for the Great Gatsby expired this year, and it is now in the public domain. And I experienced this regression on the night of the solar eclipse, so this “story” has now had its time and is ripe for energetic release.

Future Life Progression:

Ok so the final stage is the future life progression. The future life can be the future of this life that we are living now, or a future life. It’s not a “prediction” of the future, just a way for your mind to show you the potential results depending upon the processing and changes to behaviour that you make in your current life. What is shown in your future lives depends upon the intent of the session.

So I spent some time writing out my intention for the session, and then mentally in my mind worked out what I thought a couple of the potential future life outcomes could be. And I thought a lot about that poem that I read you in a previous episode about walking down the street.

As far as I could see the options were.

• Walk down another street entirely- meaning don’t even think about interacting in this life again, especially in a romantic context
• Walk down the same street but be aware of the great big bloody hole. Know how the past lives have worked out, so avoid affairs, but work on the happiness of the relationship and enjoy it for what it is.
• Be friends but not romantic. This is an option that I knew is not possible. 

So it was time for the future life progression.

I didn’t fall asleep and I was concentrating, but I could not see the paths of potential lives until the last few minutes.

It was not until the final future life- the “alternative” future life option that I saw a life that directly linked to past life regressions. 

The regressionist said “you may have a choice to make in your present life about your relationships or life direction. Imagine now an alternative choice you could take in this life.” Confirm that alternative choice now.

I have no idea what I thought because I didn’t hear a word he was saying. 

There was a feeling of dread and fear. Everything went darker in colour and I wanted to shout oh no.  I was back in the forest except this time I was the female (so I felt it was a current life progression rather than the next life). We had moved to the forest and I saw hands interlocked like you were walking with hands looped through each other. Then the light came, and filled my eyes and I saw that there was great happiness.  And then many hands joined in a circle of hands. And then my eyes exploded with light and I was looking down on the circle and it was many children looking up at me with happy smiles as if they had just released a butterfly. But I knew it was my spirit that had just released and I had died.

But I still had an overwhelming feeling of fear and of death, like something in the scene had not been seen properly.

And I heard you will have to learn to trust him and yourself. For without it, with trust, the ending will be the same as before because your over analysis of the relationship will bring fear and jealousy. Trust. If you want this way forward you must trust in yourself 100% and there must be no shadow of doubt. 

I”ll be honest, I’m still processing this future life progression, and will try it again a couple more times to see what else I can uncover.

And so, for now, the journey continues. But it has been a worthwhile experience, and I hope that sharing my experience of an age regression, a couple of past life regressions and a future life progression have given you an idea of how the theme of romance and soulmates and relationships can be explored.

As I have outlined, you can do this yourself by purchasing a specific series of past life regressions on the theme of soul mates and work through it like I have done for you on this episode of the podcast. But I also hope you can see how difficult this is, to work through on your own. It involves a lot of written analysis and personal reflection as there is no guidance.

In 2022 I will be offering this series to my clients, so if you subscribe to my email newsletter at katische.com you’ll be alerted as soon as it becomes available. 

PS the new song that is in my head that I can’t stop hearing or singing is this one. Maybe you’ll know it.

I'm a cowboy

On a steel horse I ride

I'm wanted dead or alive…

Saddle up for the next adventure.