January 24

The past life origins of self-sabotage and self-punishment: A visit to the Akashic Records with Katische.

self sabotage and past lives

Episode 10:



Have you ever wanted to scream with frustration, because despite your best conscious efforts something seems to be blocking you in life?

It might be in your career, or love life. So, if you are like me, you try everything, literally everything and throw it at your conscious mind.

And then you try the subconscious mind, but still nothing.

The thing is, if I am going to be brutally honest with you, sometimes the only place that knows is your superconscious mind.

And if it is something distressing that happened in a past life that is blocking you, then you can be sure your ego is going to throw a tantrum when someone even suggests that you are blocking yourself.

Because you know you're not. Except, you've tried everything, so you must. And then you surrender.

This week's episode of the podcast is very personal and emotional. It's not me just waxing lyrical about my past lives, I actually take you into an Akashic Records session, with the camera on.

It's an episode you're not going to want to listen to with little people around because it involves the themes of self-punishment.

My intention for sharing this episode is to show you that there is nothing to be afraid of. Sure an Akashic Records or Past Life Regression Session might uncover something distressing, a dense past life experience, but what is important is that this provides you with emotional freedom on the other side of the session.

Finally, you can obtain answers. You can understand your soul's journey, and you can bring to your conscious mind all the ways in which you do indeed self-sabotage- but in allowing for this, to notice with grace, and no longer punish yourself for self-sabotage, because finally, you understand with compassion and grace for your soul.

In order to have the highs in life, we need balance and thus our soul provides us with opportunities for the low low experiences.

I hope you'll join me in listening to this episode, Katische Haberfield, and even consider sharing it so others too can gain from my experience.

https://player.captivate.fm/episode/b391f26f-0f8d-420d-9aad-a7f4a9ed552b

For there is nothing in my past that I am ashamed of now. For I know it was all part of the plan, and without it, I could not soar to the heights that I am destined for.

Join me.

Katische

P.S Thank you Cindy. Cindy was my Akashic Records Guide in this episode. You can book a session with her through her website or view your past lives through a
past life regression with me.
https://www.cindyporterartist.com.au/


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Transcript


Welcome back to The Infinite Life Podcast. I'm your host Katische Haberfield and this week we have quite the episode for you! To start with we'll start on a light note and we will listen to an unsolicited recording that I received on the podcast recorder about past lives and the impact that they can have positively on your life and your career Scott's message has a positive and uplifting undertone to it and he will be one of our guests coming shortly so be sure to watch out for Scott's podcast episode coming soon.
the majority of this podcast episode is however very emotionally dense, so I'm giving you this warning right now if you're not up for it you might want to come back and listen to this episode later why this episode is another episode where we delve into my past lives so we've already covered one of them in the very first episode of the podcast where we looked at a spontaneous past life realization that I had involving being a monk in Tibet.

and how that unfolded in my life well in this episode we're going to be looking at another spiritual lifetime however this time this is a spiritually dense lifetime. and so in lifetimes we have spiritually dense or traditionally we might call those negative lifetimes and positive lifetimes and even lifetimes where we just have it easy and nothing much happens but this one is a particularly dense lifetime so just warning about that.

The purpose of sharing this with you is for you to understand the powerful reasons behind why you would want to investigate your past lives and why it's important as part of doing the work and understanding the journey that your soul has taken across time and I do feel that if you're going to learn from me through listening to these podcast episodes that I'm no better or worse than anybody else I've had many many incarnations both good and interesting and I'm here to share them with you so that you can gain an insight into somebody else's lifetimes you may learn from me or get your own aha insight so we'll be having a look at a particular spiritual lifetime which had a negative impact because it created limiting beliefs due to my experiences and vows that I've carried over my lifetime since then, in fact, they've been carried along with me for over or because we can't be precise around 700 years

so i want to let you know however that it ends on a happy note and i end the episode reframing the experiences that i had in that lifetime so that you can see the lessons that i'm able to take into it right now in 2022 and how that will affect my life from this point forward so i just want to remind you before we go any further that we're about to go into a spiritually intense session what you're about to hear is actually a little bit more of an introduction from me about the background of the backstory to why i did this session and then we're going to dive deep straight into an akashic records session and you will hear me experience it intense emotions and you may feel distressed however with any distress and intense emotion there is the positive impact that we gain on the other side as we gain healing and release from negative emotions in other lifetimes so if you're ready you might want to pause this recording grab a glass of water or a cup of tea and get settled comfortably and come and join me on another journey to one of my past lifetimes

Hello, Katische my name is Scott Olgren. I'm from Florida we've never met but I wanted to just give you a thumbs up on the work that you're doing with your podcast. I believe that connecting with or remembering life beyond this life and life before this life is one of the true hidden keys to fulfilling what we basically are as humankind and I say that because I had a few extremely powerful glimpses into my own life beyond and before my life when I was in my 20s and it altered the course of my life and it put me into studying plant medicine and diet and ended up I ended up writing a few books on that I see that you're from Queensland. I lived north of your of you in a tiny little town called Coolum for about six months back in the early 80s when I was travelling the world for a few years I absolutely fell in love with Queensland no need to write back or call me back just keep doing what you're doing and know that it is impacting people far beyond what you may realize. All the best.

okay so it is time for the background to today's episode before we get into the akashic record session so this past life revelation is two years in the making i think it is and the origination of why i wanted to actually find out about this past life is frustration now if you know anything about frustration you know that frustration means that you are out of alignment with your higher self you are not experiencing life that your soul wishes to just to experience it in that way so i've been frustrated for a very long time and even more than just frustrated was when people would tell me to be patient and things would work themselves out somebody who's frustrated wants it to happen right now and it makes it worse when you ask them to be impatient so my frustration to give you the 20 second version of it was i was an am highly educated person i got my master's degree at 21 i got the dean's academic award for academic excellence getting a 6.58 out of a seven for my academic school and i got hired into the largest management consultancy in the world in the graduate recruitment program and from that moment on i thought my life was set i was planning to do short stint in australia then go overseas to the uk then head over to the usa and i imagine that i would be some kind of a big rig corporate ceo life hasn't worked out that way life had other plans and mostly my plans have involved a lot of resiliency a lot of changes of career a lot of heartbreak and a lot of scratching up my head wondering what have i done wrong if you were to view my lifetime and many of you who listen to the podcast have known me for a long time you would say well she's ticked all the check boxes she's done all the studies and every time she identifies a limiting belief or a skill that she needs she upgrades and she learns more she's not one to sit back and watch tv just for the sake of it so i've studied the mind for as long as i can remember i have read everything about limiting beliefs i understand emotions i've watched every tony robbins video there was i've done eft i've done hypnosis i have done so many healing modalities i have done mindset courses in just about everything you could think of but still things haven't worked out the way i thought they would

so in 2021, I think it was I finally got so frustrated yes it was at the very beginning of 2021 I got so frustrated

that i actually withdrew myself out of everything and decided that the cause of anything that i haven't hadn't achieved or accomplished in my lifetime was nothing to do with the present life i'd covered every field that there could be about examining my present lifetime i had done so much writing and study with limiting beliefs i mean you can go all the way back to back to my first years in university and straight after it when i used to do 70 times sevens writing with left hands with michael dimenko roland if any of you remember him from way back when like i've done the work for a long time so i decided look at this it's not present life let's start investigating the past life i was lucky enough to win a quantum healing session with sandra biskind and i'm hoping to get in contact with her so that we can do a special podcast episode about the quantum healing session and what we uh revealed because it's directly revel relevant to this life that we're going to reveal today because it's the same life so however the issues and things that we identified with sandra were from the childhood of this particular life that we're going into today whereas what i've just revealed this week is from the adult section of that lifetime so you can imagine it's quite a big meaty chunky lifetime in terms of limiting beliefs and core wounds so sandra identified that it was my core wound of abandonment that had been impacting my lifetime and was impacting amongst many other things money blocks and money limiting beliefs however as amazing as sandra biscuit is and i would highly recommend you work with her i really wanted to do the next step which was prove it to myself prove to myself that i actually had the lifetime that she saw and understand it further and this is where i started to come into blocks where i could not access the akashic records by myself and when i tried to do past life regression myself i could not see anything anyway to cut a long story short there'd probably be a couple of episodes on this but um the dense lifetimes that i have lived that were required by my soul to achieve certain things actually created spirit attachments and other situations which were impacting upon my present lifetime here in 2020 31 2022 and before so once we cleared those um it was divine timing to have met the ghost helper tina irwin and if you haven't listened to tina's episode please go back and listen to that after this then i decided okay i want to do and try the akashic records again so i got in contact with the wonderful cindy porter and we set an intention for the session now the session's intention was set after we had a discussion we i'd been in contact with her for many many months and in the end it boiled down to a very frank discussion we had which is good i like frankness and she said to me look there is no reason you should be blocked from entering the akashic records except by the fact that you are blocking yourself now here we go this is where i burn up again as you can imagine because if you tell me that i'm doing something wrong that i've caused it my i'm i'm going to put up my fisty cuffs yeah i'm going to get angry because i know that i i haven't but by the time she walked through with it walked me through it and explained to me that it possibly wasn't me of this lifetime that was creating these blocks it's me who has set in place a form of self-punishment from other lifetimes so that made sense to me that really resonated with me and what we set the intention for the session was to was several things the most important was to find the first lifetime the earliest memory whereby i put in place a form of self punishment that would then turn into self-sabotage in other lifetimes and this present lifetime so looking for the root cause effect

to also identify vows and limiting beliefs that i made as a result of this self-punishment and for me personally i wanted to verify if it was relevant some of the incarnations that had been identified by sandra sandra and daniel biskein because they identified four and i hadn't seen them myself i'd begun to see them in the past couple of weeks but i really wanted to in my own mind verify them so that's the back story and i'm just going to tell you very quickly what we did find before i let you listen yourself so we did find abandonment we did find really self-punishment the physical kind lack of trust and a disconnection from source so pretty intense but you'll hear through the akashic record session that we were able to understand the purpose of this really dense lifetime to gain healing in the akashic records and importantly to verify also for myself if you listen to the episode with courtney dillon who my primary spirit guide is for the moment for this lifetime at right now in 2022 and who my um archangel is because i had ideas but i hadn't had anyone else verify it with me so sometimes you feel like you just need somebody there so you don't feel like you're making it up so we did that as well before we get into the recording session i just want to let you know that there will be a little bit of noise interference from birds in the background i've done my best to minimize this but once you get through the recording it'll go into the background anyway i have edited the first part so that we are pretty close to just entering into being at the footsteps of the doors of the akashic records now the important thing for you to note is prior to this session every time i tried to attempt to get into the akashic records the doors wouldn't open okay the most memorable time was when i was trying to see if i should train for the akashic records with a spiritual mentor joanna hunter and the doors not only slammed shut they were the doors like that of a castle but the doors molded over and we're all mossy as if uh something out of a forest and then whizzing over my shoulder came arrows they went into the door and i knew step away girlfriend you're not allowed in turns out it was me a former incarnation of myself doing that but luckily for all of us and you know that it's a happy ending because we're able to get into the akashic records otherwise you wouldn't be hearing the rest of this podcast episode i was able to resolve that through a lot of hard work on my behalf with understanding

the various roles we play over all incarnations doing a lot of deep searching understanding light and dark understanding spirits understanding really the truth of what you attract in life and then practicing oh my god practicing so much past life regression hours and hours and hours of practicing by myself so that i was ready to work with a professional to go into the akashic records i was also willing for the session to reveal things that were different to what the intention of the session was if that was in the highest interest of my soul so i set the intention with cindy and then detached so that my soul and my higher self and my spirit guides would direct us to the lives that were of the most relevant and most important to me in the here and the now then as you'll hear i had to give myself permission to actually open the records so i'll be quiet now and i'll let you experience with me the entire akashic record sessions just for one of the lives we had two revealed i'll be honest with you but i'm not going to share the second one right now

it's enough to share the first dense lifetime for today so here we go

so we'll close our eyes and let's get going so let's take a nice deep breath in

and hold it and breathe out

and again

and out

so breathing in

beautiful white golden light breathing out any stagnant unused

as you're breathing in beautiful white golden light it's filling your body

letting go all these dresses and strains of your day

letting go

of any of the attached spirits surrounding you

you can imagine roots growing out of the bottom of your feet

starting to grow down deep deep down into mother earth spreading out

far and wide down deep in mother earth

roots are growing down down until they get to the center of mother earth wrapping around the beautiful crystal center

as they wrap around the center you start to feel amazing beautiful loving energy coming up through the roots coming up through the soles of your feet up your legs and starting to feel your whole body with beautiful unconditional love

spreading right up through your body all the way up through the top of your head

as it gets to the top of your head

this beautiful golden light energy starts to spread out and around you

and it's creating a beautiful golden bubble

of gold and white light energy all around you you and you alone are safe in this bubble there is only you there are no attached spirits no other entities just you you are safe and protected

as you breathe in golden white light the bubble expands

getting ever larger and larger around you and ever lighter and brighter around you

as we breathe in more golden white energy you start to lift off from mother earth and slowly going higher and higher up towards the farther sky breathing in the beautiful golden white light in your beautiful safe bubble feeling lighter and brighter lighter and brighter ever lighter and brighter

lighter and brighter as we go up through by the sky

breathing in the golden white light

we are light gently on the big stone steps of the akashic records halls in front of you are two giant doors can you see them

yes sorry what to talk about

I want you to notice

the door handles and put your hands on the doors and gently push them open and let me know when you've done that

yep they're done they're opened as soon as you said that they were there they flung open

just inside the doors you should be able to see your spirit guide waiting there

can you see them

but just see wings beautiful I have asked all the angels to come in and help us today and protect you no I see Yeshua's face now excellent okay they're going to lead us to your akashic records room so I'd like you to follow them along the corridors until you get to your room and let me know when you arrive there

I will gently guide you along the way

okay, I think I'm here.
Have you stepped into the room?
I just see the doorway feels like it's been a long walk [long walk was edited out to save time]

yeah sometimes it is okay put your hand on the door open it and step in

in front of you there should be a desk and a chair

let's use it

um

I see like shelves to the left and then it's not a very attractive room like uh a desk up against a concrete wall okay let's go sit down at the desk

let me know when you're sitting at the desk

yes okay so now we are going to ask a spirit guide to please bring us a record that shows where you first felt the need to punish yourself for something that you have done

the spirit guide is going to go off and grab that record book for us and bring it back to the desk

please let me know when the book has arrived in front of you

they may need to think about which is the most appropriate work for you

I'm sensing they're having some discussion about which record to show you

yeah I feel like the energy of a book wanting to fly off the shelf but it's not appearing in front of me yet it's like it keeps being sent back

sometimes we are not actually ready to learn what we're asking

so I'm going to get you to please give yourself permission

to read the record that's required

to help you with this self-punishment issue so

a reveal where my self-punishment comes from remember where my self-punishment comes from

I see like a gold bound triple-decker book so it's like

a very big record yeah if you know like

in like the Tudor times they had that elaborate writing and pictorial stuff and there's like a gold bound book with gold on the edges that's the kind of thing.

that I see that that is the same book that I am seeing. so okay okay okay what I want you to do is put your hand on the book and tell me what sensation you get, please.

nervous
okay

please reassure yourself that you are protected you are surrounded by angels there is nothing to fear here

you are safe you are in control and you are protected

okay

Do you still nervous?
I'm just feeling crying. I don't know why.
that's okay let it out emotions need to flow through us

you're

okay I see like an elaborate table of contents or something like that
okay
what I'm going to do is I'm going to ask your spirit guide so please open the book to the page that is best serve you in understanding this record

so your guide will open the book to a certain page

let me know when you can see the page open.

it's open but before it opened I got the I don't see any writing on it but what I saw was a figure come out of the pages.
okay
does that make sense? like a character.
i never see writing on my pages okay so that's perfectly normal okay what we're going to do if you're feeling comfortable enough is I want you to put your hand on the open pages

and if you still feel okay and safe

do you feel like hey with your hand on the open pages

yeah I i just sense myself as a tall thin man in monk's robes excellent okay what we're going to do is we're going to actually step right through into that lifetime okay so we're going to go through into that lifetime remembering that you are in control you are completely safe and you are protected so as we step through what I want you to do is firstly look down at your feet and tell me what you see

I like these brown moccasins slippery things

what about the are you standing on a field a road to start no from your feet and describe this

it's like inside in a chamber and it's not like tiles but it's like a material that was used from a long time ago to create a surface for an indoor area for a floor so it's stone and cold but it's been shaped to be the equivalent of a modern floor but in old times does that make sense so it's not dirt absolutely okay so start to look up and look around and describe what else you can see from where you are

it's like you know if you're going to Westminster cathedral in

it's like an abbey it's like when you go downstairs in Westminster abbey

you know how they have all the tombs and of the sacred relics and the out-of-bound areas for the public

yeah just like being down in there

okay

can you get any sense of why you're there?

if you just feel into that

um are the words that came to my mind that don't match the pictures but the feeling are "time out" "bad" "punished", "forbidden knowledge".

like I read a book I wasn't supposed to

questioning

authority so it's like I'm in a room bereft of anything else yeah so is it

do you feel like you shouldn't put in the equivalent of a cell

no, it doesn't feel like I'm like lock up and I'm not punished like lock in the keys prison it's like "go think about yourself son"
okay
you know like when you get scolded by your father "you've disappointed me"
okay
so thinking about that
oh

are you okay?

it was punishment but it was before so if I take off my robe I have lashings

okay all right so

breathe

about yourself or about who did that to you but he who did that

because I know who it is.

all right now what I want you is what we want to do is we want to try and go back for the punishment

and see what it was exactly that you did to receive this punishment

are you able to see that

no, but i I'm being shown I don't know this is avoidance but I'm being shown you know like the scene from the da Vinci code where there's that awful evil monk who wears that stupid belt around his thigh where he gets it tighter and tighter so it bleeds and then he self flagellates I'm being shown like I was expected to do that and I didn't want to so they did it for me.
okay

all right so can you see at all

is this actually a punishment or is part of what you've been educated in this lifetime and expected to do as part of your religious beliefs of the lifetime?

I've been taught to do it and you're questioning its validity they tell me that it casts out evil spirits but I think that I'm not evil that I am pure but they say that because I was abandoned at birth as an orphan that I must be evil
okay
because nobody would abandon their child yep okay all right
nasty

okay do you feel very alone.
yes I feel alone even though I am in the house of God.

all right I think that you need to tell yourself that you are not alone you tell your past myself you are not alone you are there with them always

the angels are there with them always

and relay that to them

knowing that their thoughts are correct they are not even

beloved

they are not alone

despite what happens

they are truly loved

now

is that easy

I always look to the light that comes in through the stained glass windows and I know it anyway but it's hard to be surrounded by people who are supposed to be absolutely pure but acting in a way that is not congruent with my beliefs yes not the same as I believe the teachings are meant to be

very deep so I want you to give as much comfort as you can to your past life

and spend a few minutes giving him comfort

and then I'm going to get you for your goodbyes

remembering that you are always

always loved always

Yeshua reminds me that he said, "forgive them father for they know not what they do".

he shows me his hands

and holds them up to me

transfer the healing

so that I can heal my own wounds

by holding my hands to them

it'll activate

the heat transfer for myself

the heel immediately

and he's ready to

walk out of the room Yeshua

so now

we're

let me know when you get back here

back at the desk

and you know I didn't bring a tissue yep okay sorry from there what we're going to do is I'm going to get our spirit guides this record and glass down through the cauldron of the violet flame

we are going to heal this record permanently for you

so

I'm ready just get up and follow your spirit guide and I'll get you out of the room and down to the violet flame cauldron

yeah okay see you now

so you can see the beautiful big cauldron and a gorgeous violet flame and we're going to wash over the record and ourselves with the beautiful hair and energy of the violet flame you can see it washing over you or just violet light feeling the deepest parts of your soul

easing your food

taking away your need to punish yourself

I've got very strong facial features you know

like kylo ren in star wars

ugly but beautiful at the same time

feel that violet flame washed right over you

you should start feeling peaceful and calm and stay here and bathe in this healing light

how are you starting to feel now

excellent stay here for a few more minutes

light was

and when you're feeling completely relaxed again

we'll say our goodbyes

to our spirit guides and make our way back down the corridors and out the front doors take your time

hello let me know when you're out the front doors

I feel great resistance. okay then what we're going to do instead is we're going to go back to your akashic records room and sit back down at the table

and let me know when you get back there

do you feel any resistance to going back there I feel like

it's ludicrous but I feel like there's like it's not possible but I feel like there's an angel hovering above me with a cloud and a shower

you're very cleansed

I'm still giving you healing just enjoy it

take it all in

giving me a towel to dry down like a fluffy ridiculous white hotel towel

I told you it was going to be a little rough tonight and I can tell you took me several days to

get over get through that I was relieved that I could confirm the lifetime that was revealed with Sandra and I was interested that this was a different proportion of the lifetime and so what has taught me is that we learn and have revealed elements from each lifetime as we are ready to have them revealed and that we don't have it all revealed just at once because we can only deal with so much at a time so just because you've discovered a past lifetime doesn't mean that it's necessarily finished with the learnings you can revisit it if it's necessarily needed for your soul

so one of the things that I wanted to point out with that past life reveal was I wanted to talk about a couple of things that you might have found disturbing in that episode

monks and self-punishment now I'm not making this up this I've done uh historical research um about this is that the catholic church did

I'm not sure if recommend is the right word but it is well known in history that the catholic church did have punishment for monks that was

widespread in medieval times and it was to do with self-punishment okay so self-punishment is the act of inflicting physical or psychological harm on yourself for your perceived misdeeds now the catholic church basically you can look at opus dei's websites even today the opus day which is not the lifetime that I was in but the opus dei has a statement about self-punishment but basically the church saw that self-punishment was a way of joining oneself to Jesus.

self-punishment helps resist your natural drive to personal comfort because it prevents us from loving God and serving others for the love of God so in the church's beliefs at that time comfort was seen as evil okay because it took you away from God and from Jesus and from serving so hence renunciation a lot of people who have spiritual lifetimes specific spiritual lifetimes like as a nun or a monk will have renunciation issues

one other thing that I wanted to let you know about was that as you could hear and if you're seeing this on youtube you'll have been able to see this whole session is that Yeshua was there to guide me through this reveal and the thing that I learned from the themes of abandonment in that past life is that I have never been alone

that I have always been surrounded by love because I am connected to source i am from source just as you are and I also learn importantly the thing that came to me when I left the session with Sydney sorry sin sid Cindy i actually know somebody called Sydney was that in no way shape or form did Jesus ever want human beings to self-punish themselves to whip themselves like he was whipped before he was put on the cross that is not the point that has been misconstrued historically okay self-punishment is not Jesus's lesson to you it's not his legacy his legacy is compassion and love

enough said about that

the scene that I had at the time being at Westminster Abbey at the time I thought maybe it was just an illustration of another abbey because when I have done past life regressions where I actually could see things I did a few of brian dr brian vices or obese however you want to say um past life regressions and I always saw the arches the long um pathways the kind of the cobbled stones and then a green section in the middle

between the archways, so they're called the cloisters and originally I had discounted my own visions because I thought I was imagining something out of harry potter you know how they have the courtyard and they go through all those archways so I learned that that's not true I learned that Westminster abbey is the right place and if you watch the youtube version of this podcast I'm going to upload two points or two photographs that I found which actually provided me with an emotional reaction a visceral emotional reaction today so one was of the chapter house the chapter house is in an octagonal room

which is where the monks and the um the head of the abbey met and in this octagonal room this is where the lessons of the week were delivered and where punishment was delivered so you would meet there for a meeting and then you were punished okay the interesting thing about that is when I saw the picture of the octagonal room because I went and I had a look back at Westminster abbey I have been to Westminster Abbey and I have been down to the areas where I am talking about I went in

1995 I think it was and I kind of felt very spooked when I went to Westminster west minster abbey even getting tongue-tied thinking about it. I really needed to know what was downstairs and I did, I was very drawn down there I also um when kate and wills were married ten years ago I watched the whole wedding and I was uncontrollable crying during that wedding I am a royals fan so part of that was being happy joy part of it was the contrast it was literally just as I was making a decision to leave my marriage

but I think there was also some other emotional side effects that came through the second part to that was that when I then looked for what I had seen in my eyes as that room where I was where I was told to go sun to reflect on my sins and my misdeeds I found the room which is called the pyx the pics chamber pikes chamber and it's one of the only remaining rooms in Westminster abbey which is from the original 11th-century abbey

and when you look at the drawings the drawings match exactly so if you find a black and white drawing it matches exactly what I saw in my mind and when I saw the photograph of it and I got a sharp pain in my heart and my heart started pounding and I got really nauseous so when I saw the picture of the chapter house the room where the punishment was delivered I got dizzy and I continued on to find the chamber where I was then given time to reflect on my sins and that's where I got the heart sensation so I believe I found the right place and if you go and then you are studious like me and you go and search up for the original benedictine monk documentations and the research the scholars have you'll see that monks were it says on the Westminster abbey website monks were punished in the octagonal room now the interesting part about that is that I can't be in octagonal rooms and I'll put a picture for you here of

I used to be the marketing person not so

obnoxious to have called myself the marketing manager but I had a dual role once upon a time as the marketing person for casa grain wines in Port Macquarie and Hungerford hill wines in the hunter valley they were owned by the same person

and when we acquired one broke road which is now the site of the Cellar Door and vineyards originally it was a small church and that moved I just got the sentiments of that too um it moved from this small church into the huge monstrosity of a cellar door at one broke road I went in there with James Kirby who's the who was then the owner of Hungerford Hill wines I walked into the cellar door and I got nauseous immediately I got dizzy immediately and I had to leave that room I was like I cannot be in this room I got immediately sick

so I think what you might but I think there's also a correlation between octagonal rooms and a visceral emotional reaction in this lifetime so what have I done for myself since this discovery well I have this beautiful little book that my friend gave me and I have been journaling for days about the insights from the akashic record sessions and I have reframed the limiting beliefs it's always important to do this with your hand and so I've written things like I am always in the company of god Yeshua and my archangels and love, I am never separated from God I am of God, there is nothing that I need to do to join myself with Jesus. Jesus is of source as am I. We are always connected. I love and serve God and others in every moment just by existing. Personal comfort allows me to take care of myself and gives others permission to do so as well.

and there are some other ones there that I'm going to leave for the episode when we cover it with Sandra Biskind which relate specifically to children my role with children in lifetime and then vows of poverty renunciation and money blocks so thanks for joining me on this wild journey into my past. if there's any chance that any of this resonated with you and you think that you have been harming yourself through self-sabotage then do let me know go to katische.com and book in for an introductory session and let's uncover your story because you deserve to be free of vows and limiting beliefs from past lifetimes it's time for your soul to move forward. namaste.